Write an entry telling another person something that you are too afraid or reluctant to tell them. Pretend you are actually talking to them either in a note or in person
Hey Babe, i know i've been holding this from you for two years now but now i have to let it out. Every single morning when i wake up and just like that during the day, i cant stop thinking about you and the fact that your destroying yourself.
I love you with all my heart and i need you here with me, i dont know what i will or would ever do without you and to me the fact that you smoke means it s not reciprocal. I've tried everything to make you stop, ask you for it as a birthday gift, as a token of love, i even told you i would start if you didn't stop but you never listened. And i wont ever start, because unlike you, i love myself and think about the people who love and appreciate me before i do something stupid like that.
I reminber one day, when i was explaining to you that i told one of my X's to quit or i would start and he did, you got mad because you said that to you it meant that i cared about him more than you that i've known all my life, that had always been there for me and that i love soooo much.
I know that now, i m not with you everyday, and i only see you during a short period, and that the rest of the year just keeps getting harder and harder everyday without you, it doesnt matter, because it's better than watching you kill yourself.
Your probably even though you say your not, so addicted to it that this letter, coming from the bottom of my heart, your baby, your life, wont even matter nor have any time of impact on me. But at least i know i tried, and i ll continue trying until the end.
and now that i still and will always love you , and i miss you soooooo much,
Rachelle
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